Don't even know how to go about studying physics. It's like a huge mountain of mess. Question marks everywhere.
Got referred to as having an attitude by a 'higher authority' again yesterday. I mean ms koh. She caught me at the wrong time that's what. I didn't feel like talking then. My friends know.. when i don't have that happy or okay look, don't talk to me. She did. So of course whatever she asked was met with short,
Her: So how is your revision going?
Me: Haven't started studying.
Her: Why? You planning to go poly?
Me: Ok lor.
And she got pissed. Then this message came in, "Not sure what's up with you but I really hope you are settling down to study by now. If you need help with physics let me or mr teo know." You're concern; i know i know. But that's just me for you.
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Anyway, i took this test and found it rather true. At least for my feelings at this point of time.
Words in bold - very true
Words in italics - May be true, something to think about
You are tired of the various 'ups' and 'downs' of life at this time. If only you could win a lottery - or better still, be the heir to a large inheritance which would allow you to afford a life of absolute luxury. This day dreaming will shortly pass and whether you like it or not, sooner or later you will have to face reality.
Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.
Being emotionally inhibited you have no alternative at this time but to be a 'watcher' rather than a 'doer'. At this time you feel as if you are being forced to compromise and stand back. But this is not the true you. Deep down there is that warm 'open' you which is awaiting the moment to burst forth - maybe like the chrysalis which will soon become the butterfly.
You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.
Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.