merry is love ;

HMM

'Kay maybe the ibanking thing is not that fabulous after all. I have a vivitar, a pair of shorts and a ribbed top on the way. Now that only means one thing - that chinks chinks have been flying away too. ):

OOH Weihuey passed her driving test! WOOT. Onward to late nights and stuff! :D

PLEASE PLEASE PUR-LEASSSSEEEE LET ME GET MY GOLF PC TOMORROW!

12.20am: EEKS. I just bought another pair of shorts! (!!!) I cannot be hooked on online shopping! I cannot be hooked on online shopping! I cannot be hooked on online shopping!!

Ibanking rocks socks!

Does no good to the monies in bank though. I just had the funniest MSN convo with Cousin Nicky. Golfing tomorrow! Hope it won't be as bad as the last. Life's been pretty cool 'cept for the grades. (:

Been drinking too much these days. Went to Timbre today with Sherry and Ivan after haircut. EMPTY CALORIES! Lucky I've been eating mostly just 2 meals a day this week. Just weighed myself - I think the first time this year - yesterday and yay the scales are the same. Woot.

Anyway, I got back the screwed up Econs paper already and it was as screwed as I expected to be but just within standard deviation so.. Standard deviation is 20 though!

Oh excited excited, I'm having lunch with girl-who-intrigued-me soon! (:

I finally did it!

The deliberation was killing me but I finally brought the cursor to the send button and tapped my finger. The contemplating probably took 20 times more time than the writing of the email. There goes my second attempt at networking.

It pours and pours and pours

Went to ACJC's band concert at the Esplanade with Amanda yesterday. It was my first time attending a performance there! It thought it was fairly good but to the trained ear - i.e. Eunice's - it was below expectation. Hmm I miss playing music.

And I got introduced as the girl who locked up at Eunice's house. Guess embarrassing stuff never gets forgotten.

May the bad luck with buses end quick quick! My reputation as the late queen has been further perpetuated just because. ):

Happy Good Friday!

What a way to end the gruelling one month after recess! Totally suffered from lack of sleep this week. Monday night was spent researching. Tuesday night was spent on writing the paper. Wednesday night was spent on studying for the last midterm. Last night was eyebrow threading & Waraku (both my first time!) with WH and ZQ + Indochine with WH after. I finally rode on the Night Rider (also my first! Woot to eves of public holiday! And it's only 3 bucks! That's even less then the starting price for cab after midnight!). But oooh I feel so liberated now. :D

Never did know that simply having a drink and listening to the live band could make me feel so relaxed, even contented. But I came across all things icky while walking home last night! I passed a freaky green frog, (garden) snails- they look strangely very alike to those garlic escargots, and the unavoidable nasty roaches dead and alive. Gah pet peeves of walking home late using that route! ):

Sarah made bread today and it turned out really good! I stumbled upon a food blog last night and it has made me want to entertain people at home! So fun! My family did a few for the family the last couple of months but those were generally asian cusine like popiah, laksa and stuff. Popiah party was da best! Hmm come to think of it, we haven't had a barbecue in the longest time! I wanna make a nice dinner of a few courses like starters, main, desserts and have a few friends over kinda thing. So fun! Maybe will try sometime soon with Sarah.

And Chinese New Year pictures from long long ago! The last pic is one the morning after tong xiao mahjong. Look, we didn't even look the least bit tired- the powers of mahjong!

I met someone this week who intrigues me so much I wish to get to know her better. You know how sometimes you just feel like being friends with certain people. Yeah that's probably it. Haven't had this feeling in eons. Anyway, this is my favourite Monday break peeps at Settlers way back!

It just occurred to me that we're such bums; we call all our friends by a nickname of one syllable. So that's me, qing, lin, liy, yin. Oh Monday break peeps also include charm! Not forgetting other peeps like pong, will, dee, zee, beat etc. See! All one syllable. Oh I want a vivitar! Though a fisheye looks damn cool. (:

Last Friday

Step Up 2 followed by Marche then St James and I feel okay again! (: It was St James I tell you. I can't believe I'm saying this but I think Dragonfly rocks. Some group bought us drinks so entry fee + cab fare was below 30 bucks! I think that was my cheapest clubbing experience ever. And one that I was mistook for being underage countless times. Think it was my dressing - not sexay enough. HAHA.

Completed a 2,000 word paper in a day! Woot. It's probably kinda crappy though but due later at 8am so there's nothing much I can do. And I really ought to go to sleep soon.

Ohoh I think I may very well just switch to Psych (even though I failed the midterm) 'cause Econs SUCKS much as I hate to admit. Can't do shit. Hmm actually, I'm currently failing everything so I don't know how I am comparing them two. Gah anyhow pray hope I'd get a positive grade soon!

oh nooo. i checked my grades for 2 modules and i'm below mean and standard deviation for both! one of the module's standard deviation is 13.8 can! dieeee. am having a headache already.

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going?

I walked out of the exam lecture theatre today feeling the exact same feeling I always had whenever I walked out of the exam hall after doing a Physics paper I know I'll definitely get a F for. Even clover in pocket didn't help. Why doesn't things get better? These two weeks are probably the most trying I've had since stepping into college. Every aspect of my life seems to be failing - studies, family (though it's better now), friends, even my golf swing didn't let me off. I haven't cried in the longest time but it's happened twice these two weeks. The last was just. Was listening to 'Miracles happen' - the one song that has lived through all my stuffies since Secondary three - when A asked how was school work and.. How am I to get a decent grade when I totally screwed up 40%? I don't know. So damn disappointed in myself. I don't want to let my family down. I don't wanna be like when I was in JC where I always got either bad or mediocre results; I don't wanna be yet another average person. I wanna be someone better. But when things are all downhill, it's difficult. I just need something, one thing, to be better and I'll pick myself up. I promise.

Piak! went study plans

SUCKS I'm damn scared for my midterms tomorrow because didn't study adequately while Sam, Elly and Will have been studying their asses off! Inititally planned to spend last night and today studying for it but Yin asked for help for her assignment so how could I not help right? Tadah there went my entire night, entire morning and most part of the afternoon as well since I was so damn tired. FOURTY PERCENT!! Big SIGHHH. We chatted from 12 to 4 on the phone - which was probably like 30% work 70% stuffies gahh terrible - and at the last part I was so tired I couldn't even remember the previous sentence I said. Hope the mille baisers she sent will stretch all the way to the grader's lips so that heshe will give me an extra grade or something.

tinkering with cellphone

in psychology lecture now but didn't bring notes so here i am using wifi. not good at all but oh well. am still copying stuff though. multi-tasking! lecturer is quite entertaining. she just asked whether we like lky and no one dared to say that heshe doesn't. who knows lhl's son's bodyguards may just be around. oops.

i had a fantastic break before this. ah monday breaks are always the best! love them peeps. although they said my new cell is ugly ugly ugly. grr never mind i bought it only 'cause of the wifi. we are going to join arts camp! woot. cannot wait. so we were talking about last year's camp and o-week and it was so funny. ugh so fast, it's a year already.

p.s. i got my first A! albeit an A- for a 5% assignment but still! MY FIRST A!!

Hell of a week

On a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being extremely depressing), my week went like this:
Monday - 6, Tuesday - 4, Wednesday - 8, Thursday - 6, Friday - 9. Yep my work week SUCKED. There were the deadlines, midterms (which I know I won't do well for), Mom, insomnia and the discovery of something not so pleasing. It could be that time of the month but the mood swings of yore have returned.

Hearing them discuss the paper after we came out of the hall made me mighty pissed because she, who I should be of the same level with (we got the same CAP last sem and I got a grade better than her for Math), seemed to know all her stuff and I felt so damn inferior and angry at myself for letting myself come to this stage. I kept quiet throughout the whole thing so when the rest left and there were only the both of us and she continued talking about the paper, I simply brushed her off. She didn't speak any more about it after that. I couldn't be the least bit bothered. What's done is done right? And especially not after knowing she went studying with a mutual friend without asking me. Like what the crap? I always asked her whenever I went to study. What's more, I was the one who introduced her to said mutual friend. That's not nice at all! I don't know.. I just hate it when people do stuff like that to me. It's like I'm being cheated or something. Second time okay. Second time this has happened to me and I'm getting quite sick of it.

A little positivity during the week:
Finally went to Miss Clarity's with YH for lunch on Wednesday. My tomyam pasta rocked! Then bumped into Cla from TJ when I met PM in SMU on Thursday before a workshop. He remembers me and immediately connected my name to Anz's friend. Uhhhh. Love their chill-out place. I think it's called Frujch? Anyway it's the one that appeared on tv; the one that is student-initiated or something. Their rosemary chicken sandwich was yummylicious. Oh and we're going to Zouk tomorrow 'cause Lin has invites. Very timely. I need something to kick me out of the rough patches. I don't give two hoots about the partying, I just want the drinks.

Picture of the week 2: Another one in China - taken while cruising along Changjiang

So after feeling dumb and stupid, I'm now super motivated to study hard and excel in my Econs. I guess it's the competitive streak in me. Was telling Yin about it and she has already invited me to board her studious ship. I'm hoping it'll be more luxurious than the one in the picture.

P.s. Said mutual friend just called to ask me to join them tomorrow. It wasn't even her! She irks me so much now.

Recess!

): number 1: Totally bummed around eating and sleeping and growing FATTTTTT.

): number 2: NO work done. 3 papers, 1 project draft and 4 midterms looming ahead. DIEEEEE.
(: number 1 / -.- number 1: Bought a new cellphone with qwerty keypad. I just realised it's called qwerty because that's the first 6 alphabets on the first row of the keyboard.

): number 3: Said new cellphone has wayyyyy too many functions. Out of which, I don't know how to use any 'cept for the sms function. AND. I didn't think the qwerty keypad needs so much getting used to.

(: number 2 / -.- number 2: I subscribed to mobtv to watch The Golden Path. It was the hongbao promotion so.. too good an opportunity to be missed.

): number 4: Recess is ending in a day!

(: number 3: Going out to eat tao huey!